Everton's Barry on the video he was scared to post

Head in hands, tears flowing. It is not a sight you often see from a top-flight footballer. Keeping calm under pressure comes with the job, but there is a sense it is what fans and team-mates expect. So when Everton striker Thierno Barry posted a video last month of himself breaking down during a private training session, it sparked conversation about showing emotion in an industry where revealing vulnerability can be a risk.

BBC Newsbeat met the French footballer at the club's training ground to find out why he chose to share the raw moment. "I was really scared about posting that. And I said: 'No, I just need to show myself,'" says Barry of the video released on his YouTube channel. "Last season I showed a version of me [that wasn't] me, and [people] need to learn about me." In the video, the 23-year-old is seen frustrated and upset about his performance before leaving the session in tears as his team works to reassure him. The next day, he reflects that it felt positive to let go. "Sometimes it feels good to just lose it," he says. Barry sat on the video for three weeks before releasing it. "It's the first time I cried in front of my friends. They always see me as a strong [person]."

A £27m move from Villarreal at the age of 22 was always going to be a jump for the Lyon-born player, and fans expect a lot from new signings. Everton reposted the clip with the caption "emotional resilience," and comments urged the player to keep his head up. Barry acknowledged the support, saying the people around him helped him stay positive, and that his own inner critic is harsher than any fan's disapproval.

He also spoke about adjusting to a new club and country, which he described as "really difficult." "It's the hardest league in the world. New league, a new language." Last season he made 41 appearances and scored eight goals, while this season he has already scored six. "People can say I miss a lot of chances, but I also create a lot of chances," he says, while acknowledging the pressure fans place on strikers to score.

双手抱头，泪流满面。这样的画面，在顶级联赛球员身上并不常见。在压力下保持冷静本是职业的一部分，球迷和队友也普遍这样期待。因此，当埃弗顿前锋蒂耶诺·巴里上个月在一段私人训练中崩溃落泪的视频发布后，人们开始讨论在这个行业里展露情感的问题，毕竟坦露脆弱可能带来风险。

BBC Newsbeat在俱乐部训练基地采访了这位法国球员，了解他为何选择分享这一真实时刻。“我非常害怕发出那段视频。但我说：'不，我只是需要展现真实的自己。'”巴里谈到发布在他YouTube频道上的视频时这样说。“上个赛季，我展现的是一个不是真实的我的版本，而人们需要了解真正的我。”视频中，这位23岁的球员因表现不佳而沮丧、难过，在队友努力安慰他的同时含泪离开训练。第二天，他回顾时表示，释放情绪让他感觉很好。“有时候，痛快地发泄一下感觉很好。”巴里说。他在发布前将这段视频搁置了三周。“这是我第一次在朋友面前哭。他们一直觉得我很坚强。”

这位出生于里昂的球员在22岁时从比利亚雷亚尔以2700万英镑转会而来，这注定是一次不小的跨越，而球迷对新援也抱有很高期望。埃弗顿转发了这段视频，并配文“情绪韧性”，评论区则纷纷鼓励这位球员保持信心。巴里感谢了这些支持，并表示身边的人帮助他保持积极，而他自己内心的批评者比任何球迷的不满都更为严厉。

他还谈到了适应新俱乐部和新国家的过程，并称其“非常困难”。“这是全世界最艰难的联赛。新的联赛，新的语言。”上个赛季，他出场41次，打入8球；本赛季他已攻入6球。“人们可能会说我错过了很多机会，但我也创造了很多机会。”他说，同时也承认球迷对前锋进球的压力。